Hurts so good

I can't believe summer is almost over already!
I've been brainstorming for like 3 weeks where to go for my 21st....hopefully the place I chose for dinner will still have a spot open for reservations.
There is this event going on in downtown called Spark24 the night of the 30th through the night of the 31st. It sounds really cool. There will be free entertainment going on outside and in various venues throughout the whole city for those entire 24 hours.
This just means it will be more crazy down there! And we can continue on the fun even after bar close! I've never actually heard them..but Cloud Cult is performing at like 2:30 am at Orchestra Hall. Does anyone know or like them?
I had a dream last night I met Kate Winslet...she was pregnant...and I convinced her to name the baby girl Rose.

Current Music: Selena

i am another one to add onto the list of people who have dropped their phone in the toilet. Really?! How in the hell am i so dummmmbbbbb
i had just gotten my sim card replaced earlier today too. balls!
im going to target to get another cheapo replacement in the morning before work. so sorry if i havent returned anyones calls or texts tonight!

this summer has been a pretty eventful and eye opening one so far. lots of changes and experiences..
its funny how hearing something about someone you have been so close to for almost two years can make you feel like theres a part of them you dont even know at all or maybe dont want to know. i think being by myself and really picking apart my current situation without having feedback from him is making me feel confident in the decisions ive made thus far and how i will go on living my life. maybe being in the relationship is what made me feel unsure of myself..

i know for those of you i havent talked to about this whole thing are probably confused, but i am simply just typing out my thoughts.

i really really miss being in new york right now.

off to sleep. hopefully dreaming too.

ahhhhhh. normally, i spell things excellently, but of course when its important i mess up!
i talked to a girl from the gap about an internship position at a store and it went great over the phone, i emailed her my stuff, and i just noticed in the short email i wrote her that i misspelled forward....and im freaking out!!!
also, the format of the email changed so now it looks like i capitalized twice in the first sentence. i hope she doesnt care too much......my cover letter and resume are perfect...thats what really matters right?

what a lame things to lj about, but i need some assurance!

i cant believe ill be home in 2 weeks already. :)

Sounds like i might actually be getting an apartment with my mom in september. this all depends on if she is seriously going to leave greg this time. i hope so.
im gonna try and make it as close to minneapolis as possible. i found a really nice one right by southdale, so ill keep my fingers crossed for that one!

spent my day on the upper east side yesterday laying in central park and "trend scouting" for one of my classes. taking pictures of people without their knowledge is hard! we went into Barney's and sweet jesus, i wish i was loaded. The shoes are incredible!!!! and i will never own a pair!!!!

we also walked by Missoni, one of my favorite designers stores, and i wanted to cry.

next off is williamsburg, brooklyn. more of a hipster crowd where i think ill fit in better.

i miss being home! 3 more weeeeeeeks

hiccups for the third time today
so today is one of the not so good ones.

theres so much work to do!! we have at least 3 things to be working on at once, and the expectations are very high. our professors are two people with a lot of experience in the industry.
One of them is Georges Wichner, a French man who is quite the character and has worked for Yves Saint Laurent for years. Today he told us about being an extra in a film with Gene Wilder and eating condensed milk out of a tube for energy. He goes off on the most random tangents. But he has tons of connections, so we get to meet and see a lot of interesting things.
Monday we went to a showroom for an upcoming French designer who is only 23 and the smallest little man I have seen. There were models being fitted and examined and buyers being shown the clothing. It was crazy!

the worst part of today is finding out that my grandma is not doing very well. Shes been falling randomly while walking and she cracked open her head last time she did it. Shes been in the hospital the past couple of days while they run some tests and I guess she now has a combination of alzheimer's, psychosis, and parkinson's disease. She'll have to use a walker at all times now because her legs stiffen up which has been causing them to lose support. They also told my family that her heart is only at a 20-30% complete working rate.
i need to spend as much time with her as i can when i get home, because who knows how longer she'll be with us.

au revior.

Current Mood: worried

Probably favorite day so far
We went to the east village today both for an assignment but also just to go hang out.
It was definitely my favorite neighborhood Ive been to. Its really laid back and has sort of a "rocker" edge to it. I got some sweet hot pink skinny pants and some navy pointy toed heels from Trash and Vaudeville, this famous punk store thats been in the neighborhood since the 70's.
A while back I saw a Calvin Klein ad and the model in it sort of reminded me of Buddy just because of his long hair and dark style. Well....to my great surprise, we walked right by him today sitting outside at a cafe. Can i just say.....INCREDIBLY HOT....tops my list for surrrrre. His name is Jamie Burke.
Just look:

yummy.
Had Pinkberry for the first time too. Pretty tasty!!
We sat in Thompson Park for awhile people watching. Everyone either had a cute dog or a fat baby(this is a good thing!)
It was an excellent New York day.

Current Mood: happy

hot update
hot as in sticky, hard to breathe hot!!!
its been over 100 every day since ive been here. crazy!!
i cant imagine not having an a/c in our apt. im so sorry, chad!!!

anyways, so its been really great so far. i was of course really sad to leave everyone and had an emotional ride to the airport at 4am, but once i arrived, i was feeling much better. saturday got here, and had a reality check to how expensive some things are here (18$ for a burger at tgif!)
all is good and well though, as there are some things insanely cheap as well.

today classes started and we had a "scavenger hunt" round the fashion district. we went to Mood Fabrics which is where project runway contestants go. its huge and amazing and i wish i sewed more.
after class, we went to a Max Mara sample sale and i almost bought a pair of wedges..almost.
then we had a welcome picnic in Bryant Park with the program director and a design instructor. He was really funny and i wish he were my teacher. Hes a designer himself and actually had 3 collections shown in fashion week AND on the show "Make Me a Supermodel," the models had to walk down in his clothes, so he was on the show!

one more last tidbit....Madonna lived in my apartment building in her beginning out, poor days!

i have a feeling i will be updating a whole lot more while im out here.

i miss everyone and am thinking of youuuuu :)

ughhhhhhh. so im stuck with my phone for a year i guess! back when i bought that samsung phone i didnt like and returned it, the fucking idiot who gave me cash back didnt bother to put it into the system!! so it doesnt say anywhere i returned the phone or unactivated my new plan.
so im not available to update or leave my plan until may of 09 now....unless some miracle happens and i stumble upon the reciept..if he even gave me one.

whatever, i guess the phone is pretty durable. i just wanted to snazzy slider, damnt!! haha

in worse news, my mom got fired today. after 18 YEARS with this company. one the boss-type guys is having more control of the place and getting more greedy, so he has been making the women up front learn some new "strategies" to basically make the customers pay more money. since my mom is used to how it was before, shes been kind of resisting and getting upset with how the company is turning. its only been like a month since the drama has began, and without warning they told her today they were going in different directions and it just wasnt going to work with her there. thats so great of them!!!

watching sex and the city on the big screen is much needed, so thank god it will be here tomorrow night!!!
cant wait ya'll!!
southdale @ 11:10 here i coooommmmmeeee. you should too :)

Current Mood: not sure
Current Music: dr phil relaxing southern drawl

So ive been having a hard time finding an internship for New York, but I may have gotten lucky!
The owner of Patina has a friend who's a"big wig" for Liz Claiborne(who designs for Kenzie...awesome!), so Im bringing my stuff into work today, so he can pass it on to her!!!!
Having connections is really what its all about, which can make things either a lot harder or easier really.
Finals are going to be done wednesday....sweet baby jesus, i cannot wait. 3 1/2 weeks of fun with ma friendlies here, and then its off to NYC for another 5 weeks.

Phil Collins, Farm trip, NYC, Annual Cabin Trip, oh my how i'm going to love this summer!

See some of ya'll tonight, babieesssss.

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Robyn- With Every Heartbeat

i cant stop having dreams about Dylan McKay....and i love it.
its been 3 since i started watching the show. hahaha.

i have an accounting test tomorrow. IM SO EXCITED!!

i am currently enjoying the artistry expressed through film that is Beverly Hills, 90210. Season 2.
id like to thank SoapNet channel for exposing to me how truly amazing this show is.
dylan is fine. brendas not ready to have sex with that? whaaaaaat?!
i guess they probably are only supposed to be 15 or something ridiculous.

summer is so close i can feel it. i can even feel it through this stifling 35 degree weather....
this semester has been pretty easy actually. sometimes i feel guilty for it. how stupid is that?
buddys coming to visit while im in new york!!!!! and my friends too hopefully!!!
i am seriously so excited for this.
stacey helped show me my apartment in Chelsea on good old google map.

i havent written in ages. wowzers.

chads done with dead to fall. hes staying with his love until they move here in may...sometimes i wish i had nothing else to do except spend time with my lover..it will be a long time until i have that freedom!

another disappointment/non-suprise: my dad got kicked out of the place he was living....guess what for?! Drinking!!!!! oh how very smart and caring he is about his life.
i may sound like i dont care, but its just so mentally exhausting to continually see him doing to this to himself.....honestly, ive come to realize one of my biggest fears is not having him there in my future. And the single image I keep putting in my head is me, on my wedding day whenever that may be, not having him walk me down the aisle. it so depressing and sadly, realistic.

anyways, thats what a going on. im doing pretty well besides the last part.
i didnt know Mademoiselle Palmer was coming back as soon as May 1st....HOORAY!!!!!!!

So I got an interview with that Coolibar internship I was talking about.
Its on Friday morning already. Hardly any time to prepare!!!
So nervous.

Tonight my mother is coming over, and I am making us some spaghetti dinner. She is providing milk and treats. And its for the benefit of you as well, Chad for the all important laptop charger!!

I hope lots of you are going to the DTF CD release show tomorrow!!!! and if youre not, you had better haven boughten a CDDDDDDD!!!!

la la la labia.
toodles!

Why does Nip/Tuck always end so fast.
The season is over already!!!!
And it ended so terribly...terribly good...in a sad way. Do you get me?!

I have been sitting in this computer lab for way too long.
oofta.
I just finished all my resume and cover letter shannanigans for this internship im applying for. Im hoping theyll be flexiable with the whole New York situation. Its for a company called Coolibar. They make clothing etc. with sun protection. Ugly clothes.....except I did find a really cute red hat. But hey the positions I could work in sound really sweet, so i dont care!!

Mmmmm trying to think of anything else new....
Buddy and I did a scandalous photo shoot for a friend at MCAD. Making out all over the place. In front of Figlio, on top of an oven, and in bed of course. I can't wait to see them!!!
I was suprisingly pretty comfortable the whole time, minus the -12 degree weather for the outside role.

Tony- I was at Jamies last night and ate two of your cookies. I will just say that the 30 dollars worth of chocolate tasted like being in heaven with Jack Dawson.

Hope everyone is well!!
A lot of my friends and brother are away. I don't feel like a whole Nicole right now!

Im going to New York again!!!
Ive got the confirmations for the summer session i applied for at the Kent State University fashion school in NYC, baby!!!
As long as i can get aid and loans to help me out, looks like i am in fact going to study there for a month this summer.
I was scared before, but now that i think its gonna happen, im really getting excited!!
I'll be living in the Chelsea neighborhood and going to class in the fashion district. And there are already furnished apartments waiting for us to live in them!
Woop wooop!

Current Mood: excited

I don't know if its because i am just being a girl
or i am just stressed
or what

i don't make any sense to myself.
I come off as and i like to think of myself as this strong, independent woman, but when it comes down to stupid, petty things i lose all that.
mostly with buddy. guys in general i suppose. i guess it may be because im just used to being let down all the time by the male figures in my life, especially my dad. that still hasn't stopped. constantly being told and promised things that don't happen. being lied to to cover his own ass so he doesn't feel as guilty about his problems.
i get really anxious when buddy doesn't call me RIGHT after class, which is dumb as hell. cause i don't call him at the exact moment i say either.
i just got really upset because i made a dumb joke about a picture and posted it on his myspace, but he took it the wrong way so he didn't accept it. whatever not a big deal AT ALL, but i got all retarded and made it into this whole shitty thing.
i automatically assume the worst, and i cant stand it. but thats all i do. about school, my lover, my dad, and even other things.
how can i be so optimistic about life and then be this fucking pessimistic???? i just don't get it. maybe im not optimistic at all i guess. im just a cheery negative person???

Current Mood: confused

theres a movie coming out by the name of "Teeth"
its about a girl who kills with her vagina....because it has teeth.....
WHAT THE HELL?!

cant wait to see this one.

the wedding was great.
i was nervous being the maid of honor not knowing what to do really, but oh well!
it was really nice to spend that much time with my buddy, 2 1/2 days..woohoo!
i put some pics up, and of course sized them down too much, so they are a little smaller than i want. whatever yoo!
im curious how the birthday bash was last night??? good im assuming!

talk to everyone soon....i do not want this week to start..ugh

hot chocolat
This is me using drinking hot chocolate as an excuse not to start my paper thats due tomorrow.
My mom and greg bought me a new car. and by new, i mean pretty old!
Its a 1987 Buick something or other.
Powder Blue.
17,000 miles on it. Thats right....17,000!!!!
Some old couple bought it right around the time i came out of the wound and hardly ever used it!
My mom describes it as in "immaculate" condition, so i am pretty excited actually.
It may not be pretty.....but....oh well!

Speaking of my mom and greg, this weekend is in fact their wedding.
We'll be headin down to Fairbault friday evening and coming back sunday sometime.
I'm looking foward to it. Wearing a pretty dress. Seeing family. Dancing. Allison and her mom is coming too, so that'll be coool.

Well, better go check my other life necessary websites.
Cheers!

today was ummmm tiring i guess.
test in every class.
a took a nap from 1:30-4:30 in the morning with studying surrounding it.
and i still feel terrible about my econ test.
a girl was bawling at the end of class because it was so hard.
that class will be the death of me, or should i say my first class i may have to take over. ugh!

i have to work now and then come home and crash.
well maybe watch project runway before sleep....it is more important after all!

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